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This is not for you, pet

When I slip my stockinged feet into knee-high black boots and walk with confidence down the street…it’s for me, not you.

When I massage lotion across my skin, letting my hands glide pleasurably over every curve, keeping the skin soft, supple…it’s for me, not you.

When I strip down to my underwear, take a teasing photo…it’s for me, not you.

When I place delicate body jewelry under my clothes…

When I toss my hair casually to one side…

When I close my eyes and savor the taste of that coffee you bought me…

When I slip the silky lingerie you sent over my skin…

It is for me. I am doing it for me.

My pleasure.

My power.

My sexiness.

My joy.

My self.

If you’re lucky enough to get pleasure from my joy, I’m happy for you. But it was never for you. It never centered you. It never will.

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The “aha” moment that led me to Findom

It started as a slow exploration of my domme side with a partner who has a thing for worshipping powerful women. Kissing my feet. Sitting on the floor beside my chair. Anticipating my needs. Bringing me gifts.

The “aha” happened when I was I was having a girls night at my house (partner not invited) and all day he was texting me offering to come over and clean the house and do the dishes afterward. The first time felt like an offer, then it felt like worship. Obsession with the idea of pleasing me. And I LOVED it.

I realized that the surrender of his time to my control for my pleasure satisfied some part of me that I’d never experienced before. And from there it made perfect sense to me that both time and money fit into my goddess kink perfectly.

That moment gave me clarity and let me trace back to so many other moments that had the same roots and I finally gave in to what many people have told me over the years: I’d be a great domme.

So far, this journey has been deeply centering.