Last weekend, a kitten was screaming outside my window. Crying into the night for her mother. Calling endlessly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I (along with many neighbors) attempted to coax her out of the car undercarriage where she was hiding, terrified. But there were too many people; too many car noises.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And so I came back at 5 a.m. No people, few cars. Just me laying on the pavement with a bowl of shredded chicken and a phone loaded up with kitten noises.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She stepped gingerly down. She eventually took some chicken from my fingers. And after some patience, I caught her. Took her home. Got rid of the fleas. The car gunk. The intestinal parasites.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Each day, she attempts to suckle on the inside of my elbow, comforted by the idea that I\u2019m her mom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Each day, I watch her put weight onto her underfed frame and I coax her into bravery.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Each day, she borrows that courage from me, follows me to a new room, explores a new thing, and then falls asleep in my lap where she can feel safe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I cannot help but compare our connection to my journeys into polyamory and domination.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Polyamory because just like my partners, this kitten is free<\/em>. She can sleep anywhere she chooses, but she chooses my lap. And I\u2019m happy for her when she gets the courage to choose a spot beside the dog or another lap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I do not try to own her. I do not have to force my will. I simply offer my courage, my support, my strength, and she turns toward the comfort of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It\u2019s the same way I approach D\/s dynamics. I am not giving orders; my presence is the control. My courage, my strength, are what draws them in. I am an owner, a mistress, a goddess because my pets, my subs, my worshippers choose me. And they choose me daily. There are other laps. Other deities. Other mistresses. Other lovers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n And I make no effort to keep my subs, my foster kitten, my partners from those things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You are here because you want to be here. I am here because I want to be here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n To me, that is true connection, true power. You do not stay because you have to. Because of a contract or a commitment or having only one option.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You stay because you want<\/em>. To make me proud. To make me smile. To rest in my capable hands. To become better. To connect.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Last weekend, a kitten was screaming outside my window. Crying into the night for her mother. Calling endlessly. I (along with many neighbors) attempted to…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-74","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-findom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=74"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":75,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74\/revisions\/75"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=74"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=74"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yourgoddesspandora.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=74"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}